Body with one girl, but heart with another

November 6, 2003

I have been going out for a while with my girlfriend - called her N. - who was from Laos.  She has been in the U.S. about a year.  She is working as an assembler at a medical supply company.  I helped her to get into the U.S. and now she lives here with her friends.  She is just a simple girl, no make-up, no high heel shoes, working-hard girl and know how to cook.  Just a temple girl that I used to like.  Anyway, one time N asked me to get married or go out and rent a house and live together.  I told her I am not ready.  I still live with my uncle and aunt, and my parents are in Laos.

On the other hand, there is a girl who is opposite from my girlfriend. Two months ago, after I switched job from Customer Service Dept. to Billing Dept. at the same company - a local cable company - I met another Lao-American girl who was born here in the U.S.  Since the first day I met this girl - her initial is D. - I am in love.  I enjoy looking at her.  At work, when we print out papers (a lot of papers) and we come to pick up our papers at groupwise printer, sometimes we have to line up to grab them.  I cannot afford to look away from her nice body, sexy ass and her short back, and when she turns around, I just keep looking at her - beautiful legs, good-sized breasts and cute eyes.  She might think why this guy keeps looking at her.  She is short (with 5" in high-heel shoes she is about 5' tall), cute, educated, intelligent and smart, has a little-bit-dark skin (thought she was Cambodian the first time we met), and speaks a perfect English.  Whatever she said, it seems like the sound of music to me.

Another month had passed after we worked together, then suddenly our Billing Dept. got split in half, her group got moved to another side of the building.  My team stayed put where we are. So we don't see each other much - once or twice a day during a break time or lunch time - but I am still happy to see her dress up everyday as an office girl (she must spend a lot of money on her clothes).  For a month here I kept thinking about D (my girlfriend N told me that she had a bad dream that I dump her and go with another girl during the same time I started to like D -- it must be coincident).  When I look into my PC monitor at my cubicle at work, it seems like I see D's face all the times.  Finally, I couldn't wait any longer to date her, so I decided to email her (used company email system, hope the company won't fire me) and asked for her home phone number.  What she answered back was like the earth was collapsing.  She said she already has a boyfriend and loves him very much.  I was disappointed to hear that.  I could not work for about 10 minutes.  Just stared at the PC monitor.  Then I regroup myself and later thanked her in person for the NO answer and told her we can be friends as always.  

After 3 weeks of getting the NO answer from her, I still like her as of today.  When it rains, it seems worst.  Plus when you go to school part-time at night, my mind is full of garbage - thinking about D.  And when the day I did not see her, my mind doesn't function properly.  But when I see her, it seems like I am in heaven.  As I know that she already has a boyfriend, then why I still like her?  Why?  Why?  Why?  And when I go out with my girlfriend N on weekends and make love, I just keep thinking about D.  I wish I could make love with D, rather than N.  And last night, I dreamed of D that she walked pass me in the garden somewhere and she wouldn't say a word to me and about a minute later she started to laugh at me.  

Today - Nov. 6 - it is D's birthday.  I don't have anything for her.  I don't think she will be any grateful to receive anything from me.  Anyway, I told her, "Happy Birthday D."   And when I look at her, she's just gorgeous.   But she has a boyfriend.  C'mon, Webmaster, she has a boyfriend and she loves him so much... Then why I still love her?   Wake up, Webmaster... Wake up, you [webmaster] already have a girlfriend, too.

I wish I didn't switch job (I did because it is more money) and come to this Billing Dept., then I wouldn't meet D in the first place.  For now, I am swimming against a very strong current and hopefully I can forget her.  In the end, I have to keep telling myself, she already has a boyfriend.   Understand, man, she has a boyfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For now, bye bye, farewell, so long, adios and lakon.

Webmaster of VientianeTimes.com 

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Emails from our readers


Is it D's picture that you show us?

After you got a girlfriend or a wife, you always see other girl is more prettier than yours? Either your story is fiction or non-fiction, it's good for us to relax our mind to read for fun. Remember, no body is faithful but you must have the mind that see no evil or hear no evil & think no evil then you will have peace of mind. That's why blind & deaf people have less sins than us. Have a good day & don't think about D too much & don't imagine that D is N when you make love with N!  


Pathetic

Hi Webmaster-

You're a disgrace to post your love story on vientianetimes.com. That's
disrespecting your girlfriend N and your coworker D. Whether your story is
true or not - it just exemplifies that you're just a ignorant Laonai who
thinks he is educated and well off then us common folks. Have some respect
for the people you care about. You have no dignity. anyhow.....